Happy Birthday to me!

So today I am 29, the last year of being in my twenties…I am actually looking forward to being thirty.  Just me?

Anyway, I thought I would post a few old pics of myself just for kicks…also how much does Bean look like me as a baba!!

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My hair was SO blonde. Humph

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Middle bro and me for what must have been my…24th Birthday

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25th Birthday
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VIP @ V festival on my 26th Birthday

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Love this coat and the fact that my fringe is the same as Beans

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Me and my middle bro…same age gap as Bean and Bites incidentally.

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POSER! I used to love this skirt from Tammy girl I think…phahaha

Snow

Yaye the snow is here!

The babes have been ill this week but Bean is better so I can’t wait to go and play with her in it!

Teddy loves the snow and has been out in the garden about 6 times running around like a mad thing!!

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No sign if the chickens…they ate their grub and went back to bed!!

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Instagram crazy!!

Looking back

So a new year has begun.

2012 was the year I got to become a mummy again. I’m not going to lie, it was tough. A much tougher pregnancy, and I was extremely hard on myself, beating myself up a lot of the time because I was just too tired or too uncomfortable to function as I wanted to. I felt like I wasn’t being a good enough Mum to Bean because I couldn’t play with her properly, Jeez by July I couldn’t bath or lift her in or out of her cot comfortably let alone cuddle her as Bites was transverse. It was heart breaking for me and I felt if I spoke to anyone about it they would laugh at me, or think it was trivial, but it really upset me.

In the end, I got to have my natural birth 🙂

I turned 28 and had yet another birthday sober – no more I tell you.  And I got my hair chopped off.

Me and Bean on my birthday

Me and Bean on my birthday

I celebrated my first wedding anniversary, planned by my amazing husband and was a complete surprise – The Hand & Flowers, the food was amazing!  I can’t wait to go back again and get my fois gras on (I was preggers and therefore only had the tiniest of tastes..!)

Dodgy iPhone pic of the Fois Gras

Dodgy iPhone pic of the Fois Gras

Raspberry Souffle. Ahhh yeh

Raspberry Souffle. Ahhh yeh

Builders Tea - yes please.

Builders Tea – yes please.

I cooked a lot, tried new recipes and got my bake on, I’m hoping to expand on this in 2013.

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I realised that being a Mum is by far the most incredible, terrifying, fun and exhausting thing I have ever undertaken and I love it more and more everyday.  Except for the days when they both need to cry all day for no unfathomable reason, well to me anyway.  And along with that realisation came the thought that I am proud of being a mum, and that is something I never ever thought I would feel.

I’m looking forward to seeing what this year has to bring, hopefully no pregnancies!!

 

Happy with what you got

I’ve been thinking a lot lately.

I read a lot of h-mazing and inspiring blogs, and you can’t help but aspire to be more like the wonderful women who write them, to envy their style be that homes, fashion or just general ” oh my god their lifestyle is awesome” it’s not different I suppose to people who read magazines and see the images of celebs and the likes and try to be more like them, or live that rockstar lifestyle.
Even though you know deep down its not always as glossy as it looks, you still can’t help it compare and judge yourself.

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